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i am glad i was given a second chance. i want to make this work. please pray for me, will you?
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some said persistence is the key, but it’s the formula of ‘right place + right time + luck + prayer’ that makes all the difference. i think if there’s enough persistence, that formula will work for me.
i’m not at the point of giving up yet, in fact, i don’t think i’m going to until someone tell me to stop. but, i don’t think anyone will tell me that, because they expect something from me, and i expect something from myself too.
it’s been stressful months for me. i hope all the efforts pay off someday, and i hope for a miracle. too much thinking, too much stressing.. oh sanity, where art thou ??
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yupe, you heard me! i’m heading north to Singapore!
you have no idea how grateful i was for this opportunity. now i need to prepare and excel! i want to say thank you to those who prayed for me. much love, i’ll update soon!
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i know i know, i’ve been slacking on updating. it’s just that i’ve no inspiration, but i’m not given up on this just yet.
so what’s new? i can absolutely tell you, nothing! except that i might be getting a puppy, life is pretty dead for me. i’m still doing the same old routine.
ok, so let’s talk about puppy. so i went to this pet grooming shop with my mum and sister this one day, and there were quite a few puppies inside the store. my mum fell in love with this cute little toy poodle inside the shop, and she asked me whether i want one as a pet. i’ve always wanted a puppy, and with that question, i felt like i was being granted a wish by a genie, except she’s my mum, not a genie. so of course i sad yes. unfortunately, the owner of the shop does not sell puppy, but would try to find one for us. i’m so excited that my mum would actually let me have a puppy. let’s just hope this is not one of those moments where she decided on something, and takes it back after. *keeps my fingers crossed*
ok, that’s all for now. let me end this post with picture of a cute toy poodle.
isn’t it adorable?? *dies*
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yay! one week into the 365, and yet i’m still blogging! i’m just so proud of myself. *throws confetti at self*
i just met up with some of my college friends and we have so much to catch up. it feels good seeing them again, but somehow it reminded me of my college life, how we used to hang out together and did some silly stuff like surprise parties, and board game sessions. time really flies!
i’m getting tired. i’ll write more some time soon, i hope. much love friends!
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i almost forgot to update my blog today. somehow, updating my blog didn’t come across my mind until a few minutes ago. maybe this is because i’m too busy google-ing, and every time i see a link that matched my search, i got excited.
today’s going to end in a few hours time, i’m being pessimistic, i know. i could have said tomorrow’s going to begin in a few hours time, if i’m in a much happier mood, to illustrate the power of words in reflecting one’s mood. i’m kind of sad, and i’m barely hanging on. i need someone to talk to, but no one whom i can talk to. i don’t wish to turn this into an emo post, but i guess i just did.
i don’t feel like writing anymore, at least not today. i need to chill for a while, and hope that i’ll be better tomorrow. much love friends!
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i’ve been fascinated by bokeh shots recently. not sure what’s bokeh? well, you can find some explanations on wiki or find some example of photos on Flickr. have you ever look at some pictures, and the subject stands out while the background’s blurred? that’s a bokeh shot right there.
i want to shoot bokeh too on my dslr, but my lens doesn’t shoot bokeh well. to be able to shoot bokeh, the best way to go is probably using a prime lens with wide aperture. as for sony, this is what i’ve in mind, a 50mm f/1.4 lens that costs around RM1,300. why must it be so expensive?
this reminds me that i still need to get a job. i’ve been trying my best, but still no luck thus far. i shall try harder! i want that lens! but if no job, then no money, which means no lens, and lastly no talk.
i guess that’s all for now. i hope i have better news for you next time. see you folks!
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“tell me what you want to hear, something that’ll like those ears, sick of all the insincere, so I’m gonna give all my secrets away.” -one republic (secrets)
i love that song. i never realized how awesome one republic is until i heard that, since ‘apologize’ makes them good. and the lyric is just sad, but true. of course i’m not going to give my secrets away, at least not at that level yet, although i wish there’s someone there who i can spill my secrets without judging who i am. that’s all for now, much love friends !
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responsibility. such a common word, yet a heavy burden it holds.
someone in the family upsets my mum today, because of irresponsibility. that really hits me. indirectly, i guess she’s telling me to step up to my responsibility, even though she keeps on saying it’s no pressure at all.
i love my family and friends a lot, because they give me the strength and comfort to overcome any obstacles. i might have lost touch with some of my friends, but it’s my responsibility of a friend to do my part to reconnect with them. if they don’t want me as part of their lives, to be honest, it makes me sad, but i’ll understand and move on from there. i apologize for being such a lousy friend and hope to be forgiven. i have the tendency to be a loner sometimes, and it’s a flaw on mine.
sometimes, i might disobey my parents. it doesn’t make me love them less, because i just have a different opinion on things. i’m trying very hard to be a responsible daughter and make them proud.
and lastly, this is not an emo post! much love, friends !
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Paradise of Mine 